50% dead

50% because ..
It was a hectic 2 weeks for midsem tests (273 and 274), and as usual I studied my bloody arse off. Fucking close to 20 hours just in the library reading and reading and cramming shit into my brain. Each time I go back home my myopia just worsens. I should consider lasik lol but then again I would miss wearing glasses.

And now that it's the 2nd midsem break, I have to try and smash my appraisal and hopefully clinch a good grade, or I'll literally lose my shit. Also, I have to catch up with all the lectures I had 0 chance of reading through because I was busy studying for 273 and 274 -- That's approximately 20 over lectures worth of catching up. Starting to doubt if it'd be worth doing so because then I'll forget most of the things I attempt to memorise and have to read through the lectures again during the 3rd study break for finals (which is like, a fucking month away. FUCK'S SAKE!!!).

I don't see myself as an over-achiever or anything, I just appreciate it when the amount of effort I put into my work is actually reflected with a satisfying grade.

I am expecting the worst for my appraisal, and any upcoming tests. I just feel really unsteady lol.

I thought micro and para would be so fun but I guess not. The structure of those units are so disgusting lol.

ew, okay back to my work..

xx