..... not going back. ever.

I'm not always going to be at your beck and call
But I was
When I still had that little respect left of you
When I was new and naive

People are not always going to be by your side
If you are going to keep pushing them away

Stop lying to yourself that everyone is at fault
When you blame everyone for the effects of the qualities you lack
Or maybe possess, which are detrimental for yourself and the people around you

You need help
I hope you get it
If you already have it, I hope you get better
I hope you cherish the people who mean most to you
Because those same people have limits no matter how much they tell themselves they love you

I would have stayed
I would have never thought of leaving like them
I loved it there when you had a mask behind your personality
People will see through you over time
If you care more than just about yourself

Not everyone is going to be at your beck and call